from a dear friend @ Tagged -

 

May I introduce

"a girl! paityn phoenix dunfee- born june 21st 6:50 pm after 12 hrs of natural childbirth weighing in at 7.13 lbs. and 20.5 inches! woo hoo!"

siobhan

Mother and daughter

I feel like I'm finally a grandma if only by proxy!

I am one of her otha' mothers - she and my daughter were best friends in kindergarten and 1st grade(they were born on consecutive days in June) until SIobhan's family moved across the country - w/ in 10 miles I think of my family in PA - we've managed to stay in touch & even have the odd visit or two =

her mother passed away several years ago - my family went to the service back east and I and another of the kindergarten mom's attended an Irish wake hosted by Geraldine's first husband on the West Coast - the Irish in us calls to each other -

admitted lying to make  a point - it's still a lie and still wrong and ugly - she's been warned to never contact me again - and has been blocked & deleted wherever I can block & delete her - and this is someone who went to some bible college & considers herself a Christian - yeah right -
moral - the end(s) never ever justify the means because  there is no end  - not really

Microwave turned itself on this am when I walked by it - had to unplug it to turn it off -

Old high school friend has deleted his profile or someone has - which may mean he's out of the hospital and determined to kill himself or just pissed at me for my intervention efforts - might be time to contact folks in my former place of residence in SC - or not -

One party is using a  second party to lie to a 3rd party to upset 3rd party - maybe - 2nd party says 1st party is lying and thinks 3rd party shouldn't be upset by 1st party - 3rd party's fault if 3rd party is upset by 1st party - 2nd party apparently doesn't mind being used in such a fashion or 1st party isn't lying and 2nd party is - and does anyone really care?

And in better news - two different parties who were negatively impacted by aforementioned 2nd party  are back on track -

one can only do so much and must remind oneself one is not responsible for the actions of others & cannot save everybody if indeed anyone is saved from themselves -

ok I did something right for a change - the police went to his house - he was there and denied everything - so they called me for a bit more info - I even had to look in my old high school annual to see what year he graduated - they called back again - he admitted it was him and they took him to the hospital - way too much drama for one day or even a few days -

a reason I had to blow off the camping -

 would you believe a former classmate of mine from South Caroline who just recently found me on Classmates.com told me he was going to kill himself tonight - so I did an internet search and hopefully found him and when his phone was disconnected I called the police in that town and they went out to see if they could find him and stop him - so I'm waiting for them  to cal me back -  gaahhh!!

was in to much pain from all the housework I did - and still had a it of internet access which only caused more pain - so home w/ headache and nausea to boot - appears I can't do anything right -

out until further notice - will check in when I can -

I was just informed of the death of a dear friend - we never met - email, phone conversations - his love, Donna, emailed me to let me know Charles  passed away yesterday from a heart attack.

We three had plans to meet - maybe in another life  or on the other side  -

 I am in tears

thanks to Steve for leaving this song on Seaprayer's blog -
somehow it just seemed to go with Della and the Dealer(and a dog named Jake...)

 



 

One thinks to lose oneself in a book of legend - transport oneself to another time and away from one's everyday cares and concerns.

um no-

there one is - with all the attendant pain, betrayal, humiliation, sorrow, love found, love lost, joy and agony of one's own life - damn it all to hell anyway -

is a short stretch of road I drive on to many errands - the trees remind me of the seasons of my childhood -
today it was summer - summers in southern Michigan and northern Illinois -

I seem to be regressing and shrinking in odd ways  - pediatric sized medical implements are my size once again - even one for those annual gyno tests - and mercifully no pain as there has been for so many years lately in that southern hemisphere of my body -

Jim was treated for an infection in his leg and given medication for that & the edema - the jaundice was not addressed this visit but an appointment will be mailed to him to follow up on his prior visit wherein tests were done to determine what is causing the jaundice -

over 12 hrs there - not counting travel times and errands done both ways - we didn't get home until after 1.30am -

and now per Brent's advice rest, eat, breathe between the good deads(sic) an apt typo I think -

exhausted...

we were there - after a 30-40 min drive - from a tad before noon until almost 1am - got home about 1.30am - and that was rather speedy for a county ER - he'll live for the moment - and I brought him home  - might be more later if I can ever unscramble my brains -

Jim to UCLA Harbor County Hospital today at his request - I have a hideous feeling he's planning on dying there - whatever transpires - we willbe there fo hours waiting Im sure -

He determinedly made it to and thru the memorial luau for his ex Steve - but it was a frightening experience for me to have to help him put shoes on his feet swollen by edema - and drive him there and listen as he labored to breathe - his skin is still yellow as are his eyeballs - his right leg hugely swollen where the car door slammed into it the other day -

Tsippi & I have spoken about the care of his dog Sophie so that's covered -

ggaaahhh!!!

   

Baby
take off your coat
real slow.
Take off your shoes
I'U. take off your shoes.
Baby
take off your dress
yes
yes
yes.
You can leave your hat on -
You can leave your hat on -
You can leave your hat on.
Go on over there
turn on the light
no
all the lights.

Come over here
stand on that chair
yeah
that's right.
Raise your arms in the air
now shake 'em.
you give me reason to live - you give me reason to live -
you give me reason to live - you give me reason to live.

Sweet darling - you can leave your hat on -
You can leave your hat on
baby - you can leave your hat on -
You can leave your hat on - you can leave your hat on -
You can leave your hat on.

Suspicious minds are talkin'
they're tryin' to tear us apart !
They don't believe that it is love of mine -
They don't know what love is - they don't know what love is -
They don't know what love is - they don't know what love is -
I know what love is !

There ain't no way - you can leave your hat on -
You can leave your hat on - you can leave your hat on -
Give me the reason to live - you can leave your hat on!

 

  




Now here you go again
You say you want your freedom
Well who am I to keep you down
It's only right that you should
Play the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat...drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost...
And what you had...
And what you lost

Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/evg ]
Say...Women...they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean...you'll know

Now here I go again, I see the crystal visions
I keep my visions to myself
It's only me
Who wants to wrap around your dreams and...
Have you any dreams you'd like to sell?
Dreams of loneliness...
Like a heartbeat...drives you mad...
In the stillness of remembering what you had...
And what you lost
What you had...
And what you lost

Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say...Women...they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean...you'll know

chose the humor category but its very black humor - received a letter from an Admin Law Judge w/ the SS Administration today -
the gist f it was why ever had I not filed an appeal on my first claim that was denied 3 years ago?

hello - I did and it was shot down as well - 2 freaking years ago - well past the 60 day limit for filing an appeal -

oy!!

at least I was able to speak to my atty's office today and did find out the next hearing date - 10/5 - sometime before then i will meet with the lawyer to prepare for the hearing - much better service than the first lawyer -

now if I can just hang on to  what little sanity & other resources I have left until then -

trying to understand  the perspective of another - the woman I wrote about earlier - I poured my heart out to her - she picked up who the ex bf was before I ever mentioned his name - says she's somewhat clairvoyant - whatever -

I told her how happy I had been just to be with him - how comfortable we were with each other - I described our dates - and she thought it was awful that he didn't take me out to dinner and spend money on me doing this and that -

I never thought to gauge a man's love for one by the amount of money spent but what do I know?  Anyone who knows me knows how screwed up I am especially when it comes to men -



(another tag she probably found offensive tho it certainly struck a chord with many of my gfs on Tagged)

I though I was being considerate of his financial situation but maybe he does have the money for such displays of affection like the dinner they had together and I was just a cheap date to him -

so back into my cave...